Being A Writer

"The secret is to have a task, something you devote your entire life to, something you bring everything to, every minute of the day for the rest of your life." 

- Henry Moore

While the whole world is busy working their 9 - 5 office jobs, we writers have a full time job. Not the full time job other people work, but a 24/7 job. A thing you devote your entire life to. Something your mind revolves around. You always think about your characters, the plot, you're practically living in the world you created. And that's awesome! You created something that is entirely yours! But being a writer isn't just living in a fairytale. It's having to combine writing time with personal time, with family and friend time. It's having to convince people you aren't crazy, at least not fully. It's caring around a journal with you at all times so you can scribble things down. Being a writer is so much more than a job, it's a passion, it's what you are.

I don't know if you feel the same, but every time I hold a book in my hand - be it however good or bad it is - I am so envious, and at the same time so proud of the author. I'm envious because they managed to finish they novel, and I'm here procrastinating writing time with blogging. And I'm proud because they managed to finish their novel! Like, that's so awesome, this person sat down and wrote something that was close to their heart and now I am able to hold it in my hands. I cannot possibly fathom the feelings that are connected with publishing a book. But I hope that I will be able to feel them too, one day.

And while I wish to tell you that my writing is going great and that I'm loving what I do, I've found that I do struggle quite a lot. It feels like every day I get a new, fantastic idea. Something I want to write so badly, and then I start it, I make a Pinterest Board with all my ideas, and then I just lose interest. I do really try to keep up with my writing and I always feel so proud when things work the way I want them to. I feel so happy when I get a page done, or even just a paragraph. And I guess that's what is important. That even with all that gets in my way - between work and school I have basically no time - I still appreciate the time I get to spend writing. I feel happy when people compliment me on what I've done, even though I'm always so scared posting anything and I just want to edit it again and again.

But I guess that is what being a writer is. It's criticising everything, never being truly happy with what you've done and forgetting that you need social interaction. But after all, it's the best thing in the world. And we writer's kick ass!